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January Challenge Day #26 NoSettling


I’m the type of woman who is satisfied by simple things like phone calls and outings with good girlfriends. But I’m also complicated. The older I become by hours, days, weeks, and months I expect more from myself, the opposite sex, friends, family, and employers. I think someone said practice what you preach.

I tend to want what I want when I want it and how I want it. Some have called me spoiled. Couldn’t I just be a woman who knows what she wants and isn’t willing to settle. I have realized from observing career women/single women around my age that it’s hard to find a good man. It’s especially hard to walk away from a good man (not knowing when the next one who’s the right one will come along) because somewhere inside he doesn’t give you, fit into your master plan, or he’s just not for you. It’s a feeling you get. I’ve never been in love, but I have definitely felt that a man wasn’t for me. It’s like a gift I have. I’m waiting to feel the umph, butterflies, and all the other stuff one feels.

I’m not good at communicating my emotions (what I feel) likely because I’m afraid of falling hard. Afraid if things do not work I will not be able to pull myself back together or I will become bitter like other women I have met/watched. But not just with love it’s hard for me to be honest about my emotions because I am always considering other people’s feeling when it comes to family and friends.

The older I get I become more conservative and less bold. I understand the more responsibilities I have and I become stressed. I understand the decisions I make affect all those around me. I understand the things I say may not need to be said. Sometimes people just need your support.

Often when I am honest with my emotions it comes off harsh and brash. People think I am being mean or I have an attitude problem (may be a little intimidating – all things I’ve been told). Where do you find the balance in communicating your emotions. How do you learn to not settle in life when it comes to love, career choices, and situations? Where do you muscle up the fight to tell someone they are wrong because you believe something else better will come along as it pertains to your life?

I remember writing a Facebook message that said you can make your dreams come true out here. #realtalk. I meant it then. I mean it now.

I’m not picky, I just know what I want and I refuse to settle. But I’m always willing to compromise.

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January 27, 2013 - Posted by | January Challenge

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