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#AprilWritingChallenge – Day 3 – Dear Future Husband


First you need to understand I will not lose myself in a superficial world. I want a marriage that has a spiritual rich, honest, and genuine foundation. And if my marriage is made up of these things than I want the company we keep…. At least some people in our circle and family to be made up of the same substance.

When I say I want to get married. It has nothing to do with feeling like Cinderella. Let’s remember that was a fairy tale. I believe in the union of marriage because of my love for God. When I say I want to get married. It is not about the rings so much as it is about a honeymoon. Or a white picket fence, or kids running around the house, or kissy faces, or not being alone. I can manage being alone.

For me marriage is something created by a higher power. Joining two people together spiritually. It is something pure to me about two people coming together before God & family saying I vow. Marriage is a connection/bond shared with God. That’s how I view it. A spiritual bond between two.

One that I will have to share with any man I choose to marry. Because if you lose your way with God, you will surely have lost your marriage.

Just because two are married doesn’t mean they are happy all the time. At least that’s what I have learned from the elders in my family. But if I have to go through the storm than God has to be our anchor. And in this world we live in sometimes love is not enough.

I have no outlandish request. I use to have a list of qualities I wanted in a man. I think it’s still around in one of these old notebooks. Now I only have a list for myself. If I can honor that list than I know I can attract a man with some of those same qualities.

One day we’ll meet. I am no longer obsessing over how you will look or what your occupation will be. I am more interested in the adventures we will have. The house and place we will make home. The garden we will pull weeds from. The times spent in the kitchen. The smiles shared over dinner. The prayers we say to Our father who art in Heaven, Allah O’ Mighty, or Jesus Christ. The knees bending and hand holding.

The face caress. The arguments that help us both to see where we are wrong, right, or may need to work a little harder to be better people (friends, lovers, wife and husband). I am interested in the journey we will take as one and I am praying to death do us part.

I can see laughter filling a house. Books read at night. My head resting on your shoulder. My head resting on your chest. My palm draping your chest. My fingers caressing your neck.

I can no longer visualize your face because I’m looking for a man with a heart, values, morals, and a relationship with God. I am no longer concerned with your height because to me you are a King. I am no longer concerned with your skin color. I am no longer concerned with your background or flaws. I am accepting of all because I too have my lies, secrets, and ugly ways. I have never been and will never be perfect. I can no longer expect you to be.

I am working on loving myself so that I do not settle for a love that is not worthy of mines. I am working on growing up so that when you see me I am a woman. I am working on my finances so that we can buy together and I can be independent. I am working on myself so I can give all of my best qualities.

I could go on. But there’s no need for that. I have to get back to me. I have to continue my journey. I have to let fate do its magic. While we are distance and still strangers. I am learning to be patient. I am learning to be open. I am learning to see, touch, and feel when my eyes are blindfolded. I am learning to lead when my heart has lost its way.

More importantly I am working on myself so that I can recognize your arrival.

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April 3, 2013 - Posted by | #April Writing Challenge, Fun Topics

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